Gratitude i guess is where i begin tonight

I am truly at a loss. I don't know where to start. I have several pieces I have begun and not finished enough to even post on a stupid blog with sporadic readers at best. So tonight, I simplify my thoughts down to most basic of gracious gestures...

My beautiful intelligent amazing children, my supportive family, my loyal pup, my comfortable safe home, my team of amazing women (and now a few men) coworkers who walk through the shadowy underworld every day in an attempt to help a few lost souls.  My families that are forever my greatest teachers and heroes in their strength and perseverance.  My country that for the first time appears to be willing to choose hope for a more equal future, my relationships, present and past, for all the lessons about life, love, loss, and most of all about myself.  My running water, the heat from my vents, my lights in dark winter nights, even my freakin internet to keep me sanity and company when those winter nights are sleepless.  My car that has persevered through my constant long distant abuse and ridicule and continues to carry my family from destination to destination safely.  My amazing friends whom, though we all live very separate and busy lives, are faithfully at my side when the need arises. My health, my vision, my hearing, the acuteness of all of my senses.  My sanity though sometimes it may feel in question it remains with me on the most basic levels.  Freedom to write, think, feel, and choose my own direction in life. The freedom, sobriety, and stability of those around me that i love dearly and admire their fight and struggle every day. I am grateful for the reminders in the universe, the little signals that i am headed in either the right or wrong direction that also signify a strengthening bond between myself and the higher energy i am connected with. My sleep when it decides to agree with me and even when it doesn't my sleeplessness often lends me insight to what needs more attention in my personal universe....


I am sure more hashing out of shit in my head to come.