Frustrated

Why the hell does it feel like I have to take a lead roll in everything?!? I'm really not interested in doing it all by myself. I don't have time or energy for the responsibility and ultimately something has to suffer which is a consistently rotating aspect in my life. I'm told to find the balance and I get on myself feeling like I'm not working hard enough then I hit 10 or 11 days straight of going until I pass out on the couch trying to salvage what little sleep there is to be had between midnight mommy duties, demanding emails, putting laundry away, dog walks, and if I get lucky... An occasional shower... All to wake up and attend to the needs of those whose are exponential and the very little one has to offer will never be enough. Let's just be real, I never signed up, entered a drawing for, proclaimed to be, nor tried out for super-mom. I feel this is a much larger rant to eventually evolve into some sort of slam poetic form however I have too much other shit to do...