Choke

Not sure what's wrong with me. I 've had many difficult conversations and been the instigator.... I just can't even choke the words out to get started. I'd say I'm too tired but that's a lie, it's on MY mind constantly. I didn't even do anything wrong this time, why does the fear have a death grip on my throat? Shouldn't this be the one place that I should be able to have such conversations? Not sure what to do.... Maybe therapy...

The words literally won't come out...