Integrity

Integrity is the word... Wow has 2012 turned out to be quite the improvement thus far. I simply lack the vanity to take full credit for this feat, I am continually surrounded by the love and encouragement of the many fantastic people my life has been blessed with. However, there is something to be said for simply figuring out how to grow up. The average person's brain does not even reach full development until approximately 27 years of age though i never imagined it would take me this long to get there. It's been a hell of a of couple years but I am pleased with where they have brought me. I could easily speak to the many regretful decisions that have added to the turbulence however without them I genuinely don't believe I would have come this far without some of those very same decisions. We are all shaped not only by our experiences, decisions, their outcomes, but by the way in which we react, learn to respond, process, and heal from those events. The last many years of anger, love, resentments, tears, grudges, loneliness, guilt, shame, pure joy, and complete loss have brought us all to these moments. These moments we have today are worth the trials that lead us here a thousand times over. The integrity piece i believe comes from an entangled combination of the many trials, simple age, and a constant strive for growth. There is an enormous sense of security in the mirror knowing that my actions are consistent from personal, to work, private, and public. This consistency has even led to feedback about drastically improved job performance. Perhaps if life begins to fall apart again in the future, i will have the piece of mind in knowing that forces are beyond my own control and that my integrity was of the highest degree...