I was pretty convinced I was going in to the doctor to be told I was anemic... or had a potassium deficiency and they were going to put me on yet another vitamin. Oh how I wish that was the case.
A genetic Thrombophilia disorder... who woulda thought. This is crap. This means not only that there was a reason I lost Kai (nice to have an answer yes) but there is a reason why I could lose another one. Or why I could have problems in the future.
How did I get so lucky the first time? Everyone said how textbook of a pregnancy and labor Amery was... couldn't have possibly gone any better.
I think I was too taken back by the news to ask all the questions I feel i should have asked...
Now I just feel really in the dark, although one answer was given it opened the door to 1,000 more questions. There is a deepening pit of anxiety sitting back behind my stomach and instead of feeling better by being fed one answer to a big question, it just gained a bigger appetite. Ugh... I kinda feel sick.
Thursday's appointment can't come fast enough.
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I am sorry I haven't gotten back to you sooner! It does make me feel better to talk to other mom's who have gone thru the same thing, and I think we have a lot in commom. We are even due around the same time!
My prayers are with you...I know how hard it is to just be pregnant, be happy and don't worry. People think it is so easy don't they? It's not. And I know for me the emotions with this pregnancy are nothing like when I was pregnant before, before I knew babies were born early and died, before I knew the pain of a mother's grief.
I hope we can talk more and please keep in touch!
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