Why is it...

that you are so god damn difficult to talk to? Why do i hate confrontation with you over anyone else in the entire world? Is it because i feel so crappy about it afterwards? Like i just never win? I just don't know what to do with this anymore. The most obvious easy conversation become daunting due to my struggle to just feel heard and respected. When and how did it get so hard? It wasn't always like this. I know it wasn't what either of us signed up for. When did the words we used to communicated so sweetly and effectively slip away? When did ALL the words slip away? I find myself even at a loss to describe my feelings around all this due to how little words seem to surround the situation. There just seems to be so many things that are so much more important than conversation these days. I feel out of the loop, off of the list... and its very tiring...